Updated: Mar 30, 2018
I will stand at my guard post and station myself on the lookout tower. I will watch to see what He will say to me and what I should reply about my complaint.
- Habakkuk 2:1
“Now, stop. Go into your watchtower. Wait and see what the Lord is going to do.” My mentor spoke lovingly, but firmly.
I was in an emotional whirl. My office was closing and my job was being relocated to another state. The unknown, the fear of leaving everything familiar, taunted me relentlessly. After we ended our conversation, I pondered her words.
Go into my watchtower. Watchtower: an elevated observation point. My watchtower was not so much a physical location with unobstructed views of great distance, but more about how I perceived my here-and-now circumstances. I needed to climb out of the muck and mire of my fears and rise above the noise of my unreliable emotions. I needed to take my unruly thoughts captive. I needed peace in the midst of my storm.
Wait. Personally, I think ‘wait’ is a bad four-letter word. It means most often not in my timing and most likely not my way. I like to make a plan and quickly execute it. If I am waiting on someone or something, I must surrender control…and I prefer to be in control.
See what the Lord is going to do. I know God is always good and has a good plan for my life. I just wasn’t sure if His definition of good was the same as mine. Yet, if I trusted Him with my eternity, why couldn’t I trust Him with my present?
So I climbed into my watchtower. I started spending more time reading the Bible; excitingly, the words came alive. I filled my journal pages with heartfelt prayers and how the Scripture was speaking to me. When my fearful thoughts emerged, I countered with what I knew to be true: God is good, faithful, loving, trustworthy, and nothing is beyond His control. I started waiting differently; instead of dreading and being fearful about what may happen, I chose to anticipate and expect the Lord to do something amazing.
I’d like to say that I stood firm in my watchtower. However, many times I fell out; I took my focus off of the Lord and allowed my fearful feelings to consume my thoughts. Thankfully, I quickly realized what I had allowed to happen.
In His perfect timing, the Lord provided an amazing job opportunity. It didn’t come packaged as I had wanted, it was even better than I could have imagined. I concluded that His definition of good is always exceedingly abundantly more than I can ask or think. I decided I wanted to reside fulltime in my watchtower.
Several years have passed since the first time I went into my watchtower. I have weathered many more storms, with a few being full-blow Category-5 hurricanes. I have enjoyed even more mountaintop days, where all is right in my world. While I know there will be stormy days in my future, I can cling to what I know to be true: God is always in control and will work all things out according to His purpose, for His glory and for my good.
Now, stop. Go into your watchtower. Wait and see what the Lord is going to do.