The Lord is working me through my self-tasked “fix it” issues. While I know the outcome will be for my good, the refining process has been painful.
My fix-it mindset is not a control issue; I don’t need to be in control or have things done my way. My fix-it mindset activates when I sense someone is going through a difficult time and needs help or when I see something that needs to be done. Since I don’t want to see anyone struggle, suffer or inconvenience anyone, I engage. I’m all in. Even if no one asked for my help.
The past six months have been hard. Countless things have happened and each time I have wrestled with, and often taken on, the responsibility to fix-it. And I have worn myself slap out.
The other day in my quiet time, as I once again wrestled to remain neutral and hand’s off in a situation, I read Psalm 57:7:
My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises!
I pondered the verse.
Steadfast. Fixed. Intense focus.
On God. Not on the problem or situation, but on God.
At that moment, the Lord spoke to my heart, “Sharon, the only thing you need to fix is to fix your eyes on Me.”
I exhaled and literally sensed a heavy weight lift from my shoulders.
That’s it?
That’s all I need to fix?
Just my eyes on You, Lord?
I can do that.
I WILL do that!
And yes, I will sing praises to You, O Lord!
Let your eyes look directly ahead
And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you.
Watch the path of your feet
And all your ways will be established.
~ Proverbs 4:25-26